The Colorado trip for me was a way to escape the daily stress experienced lately due to some unfortunate circumstances. The trip brought self-reflection and acceptance of what’s left. I wanted to gain a sense of things. Not a single person that knew about the trip supported my decision to embark on the journey alone since I had recently been ill. But I wasn’t alone, not in my mind at least because she was everywhere. She surrounded me. Let me explain what I mean by that. When I find something beautiful (not people, but objects, nature, art, etc) my thoughts are always of her because to me …she is beauty.
“If you truly love nature, you will find beauty everywhere.” – Vincent VanGogh
I actually feel more alone living in the city than I did while camping. Do you know what it feels like to be surrounded by people but still feel …alone?
I’ll share a few pics with you from my trip. I backpacked and also utilized my vehicle because I wanted to visit two locations: Pike and 11 Mile State Park. The resolutions are not that great here due to me not being able to find my camera reader cable so I had to wirelessly send the pics to my phone, which resulted in me having to crop them dramatically.
The symmetry here was just breathtaking.
I lost track of time sitting here mesmerized by the silence, colors, and the view in general.
One of my favorite sounds is the sound water makes as it travels over, under and around rocks. This stream also made good for hygiene purposes.
The clouds proximity from ground to cloud looks so close doesn’t it? I relaxed under these guys for awhile and watched them roll by as they provoked deep thoughts.
My reading nook…what a view. This must be a very popular spot and I was joined here by several back packers for hours. Finally I was left alone to take in the surroundings.
First eye view from my tent. I must’ve stared at the moon for longer than I’d like to admit. It’s fair to say I am mesmerized by astronomy in general. I always stare at the moon and wonder if she ever looks at the same time that I do. One thing I forgot to bring on this trip was my telescope. Next time.
That’s all I have for now. Hopefully I’ll find my card reader somewhere when I get back from the South East next week. I have an amazing shot of my camp fire (I’m pretty proud of by the way) that I want to share. Speaking of campfires …solution to making smores and knowing that a hershey bar not survive a back packing trip? Nutella. It took smores to a whole different level.
I do feel some personal growth from the trip. I was only out there for 5 days but baby steps don’t require a lot of time. Like I said, in all things beautiful…I see her…so I wasn’t alone. I still have a long …long way to go. It’s been almost 3 weeks since my last hypomania (milder form of mania) episode. I didn’t sleep well last night because I was up watching films and I just lost track of time. I really hope that doesn’t set me back. But for now, while I still feel the ability to focus I’m off to finish writing a paper on how the discovery of the rh immoglobuin could have changed the course of history. You know…if Catherine of Aragon had not had 16 miscarriages. Then I’ll be heading east to Tennessee to see my pup, Atticus. I wonder what he will do when we see one another for the first time.